I really love this like alot, but the seme makes me remember a face I don't want to rememb...

I really love this like alot, but the seme makes me remember a face I don't want to remember. Like he has the face and hair and height the same with my crush before, and it just embarrasses me ╥﹏╥ I really don't want to remember of those times bc I feel embarrassed of what I did lmao