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Hogu Hagyeongsu

Complete | im-aeju | 2016 released

2024-06-18 18:39 marked

Tags: fucked up shit

Stich it from comment: the easiest way to put it is that kyung soo believes that he is so deeply damaged that there is no one in the world for him but yule. being with someone normal like dong hyuk only results in that person being tormented, and kyung soo cant inflict that on another person. he doesnt love yule, it’s just his only option. as he mentions in one chapter, yule will forever make his life hard, so he just chooses the option that hurts the least. realistically i believe he wants dong hyuk, but watching him turn from a cheerful, silly guy into someone who is traumatized and willing to kill someone made kyung soo so full of guilt and self-hatred that he knew he had to leave for dong hyuk’s own good. kyung soo also cant live apart from yule knowing that any person he approaches for the rest of his life is at risk of being put through the same psychological torture as dong hyuk. yule and kyung soo have a mutually assured destruction. if kyung soo leaves yule, kyung soo will forever live a horrible life and yule will literally die. if yule leaves kyung soo, kyung soo will be alone and drive himself insane with paranoia and untreated trauma. and also as long as kyung soo can pretend and search for the good times with yule, he can find some amount of comfort in their relationship.