So all I could remember is that the uke was abused and r*ped by their father and forced to dress like a women so the dad can cope with the death of his wife (the uke's mother) and I remember the seme not forcing him to do it while the uke insisted so the seme agreed and then while they were doing it the uke kept crying and he seme was crying too and repeating “I’m not him please’
Possibly Chou to Kumo no Su
I can't remember if he dressed in women's clothing. Sequel is actually my pfp, Chou to Hana no Kankeisei.
It’s not that one :((( but thank you for helping
So the mc is this guy who has been trapped in a video game and is the hero and for all his achievements he reserves a slave girl as a reward (the slave girl Is blond with blue eyes and she used to be a princess but was banished and she is very stubborn) so the mc at first refuses but ends up having her and they do it a couple of times and then the small village family offers a girl for the mc (the girl has white hair) and the mc punishes her for only wanting his seed and not wanting him and that’s all I remember