I’m sorry but this story is 95% flashbacks, like we get it. Please continue with the present, I’m tired of the present getting good then boom childhood trauma.
Me toooo there’s so many flashbacks!
Honestly, when it’s so many flashbacks I start to lose track of what the current plot is. It’s like they’re throwing in so many subplots and then they’re just like “..yeah that’s it, we will not delve deeper. Take this “lesbian” kiss.” So it feels nonsensical and not well thought out. I understand they’re trying to make it angsty but it’s not coming out the way intended.
Am I the only one disgusted at how much focus the put on the fact he was ripped and bleeding? Was the goal to make you uncomfortable so you’re aware of how unhinged the red/blue eyed guy was? Or is to appeal to the noncon crowd?
Same here, I stop a lot of times during that scene and eventually just skipped it before I continue reading the story, aside from the rape parts this story have a lot of potential (for me)
I usually can feel nothing with those scenes other than mild frustration because I think it’s lazy writing in bl stories and it’s often romanticized. But they really were able to make me physically uncomfortable in this, like the scene was just revolting and triggering. I’m just confused on what the goal was, was it to really bore into our minds that he’s terrible and not to expect anything out of him? Or is it going to go the lazy route and somehow skip over the trauma and make it be seen as romantic?
I hope it will not become like the other BL stories that the mc would fall in love after being rape a lot of times if the ml simply treat them kindly a little bit, if that man really is the male lead, I hope he does a lot of effort to win the mc.
I think it's because it's in apocalypse settings that the author wants to normalised the blood, or perhaps you are right that they want the ml to appear more insane for doing so, but I think the ml is half zombie. I don't know; I simply feel it. (￣∇￣")
How the hell did he survive for 2 years homeless as an idiot? Broke into a home, feasted, and was living it up. He also conveniently malnourished enough to never grow hair down there but not enough to a point he was muscular and had great agility?
I think you're overthinking it, it's just smut babe
This man so delusional, he legit kidnapped her simply because she was asking for directions then get pissed that she escapes? DUH?? YOU KIDNAPPED THIS LADY
I spent this whole chapter laughing because you standing silently in the dark because the woman you arrested and was wanting to use didn’t want to be used and left you, now you talking about giving her everything? Everything BUT freedom All she wanted to do was travel and was snatched up.
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I’m not sure but I’m really not feeling her makeup (?) it’s very clown-like and doesn’t really match her features. Like I understand they’re trying to show her as a villain with the heavy makeup but still draw her soft to show you otherwise but it’s many ways to do that than the uncoordinated makeup tones. It reminds me of 80s makeup.
It’s not the fact he’s a masochist that’s hilarious, it’s the fact he went to every place she went just to get hard whenever he saw her going apeshit on her family. Like he saw her dragging her brother by his eyebrow hairs and was biting his lip like “fuccck.. ” Her face expressions are fucking hilarious too, but on a serious note. I relate heavy to her family spending, I have the same issues with mine. So I totally understand the whole “being seen as the villain for being rational.”
Sorry, you are going through that.Hope the best for you
Thank you, it’s greatly appreciated.
I know they’re probably trying to make the ML the typical “obsessed” ML but for some reason it’s not hitting. Maybe because they hyped him up as some cold hearted guy and he instantly fell for her. I’ve read some obsessed ML stories that genuinely made me concerned because it was possessiveness being shown probably 1 time every 20 or so chapters, but with this guy, it’s literally every encounter.
It’s not even scary possessiveness, it’s like a jealous child mad their friend is playing with someone else. He was definitely not a well thought out character, the MC is a well rounded character who’s seeing herself in her son which makes her even more guilty even though she technically didn’t do anything because she was also a victim who hasn’t healed. Her son is a young victim of abuse who’s trying to learn to unlearn his protective mechanisms from when he was abused. They’re the only one who’s actually thought out, the rest just feel like filler.
I love this but do tell me, I need some spoilers.
Never mind, I read the spoilers. I m dropping this.
Pls spoil me too
- Isabella had FL take care of her friend for her, a guy who went by the name "Jake" that was part of the rebellions but doesn't remember his past. FL was nice and felt indebt to Isabella that she agreed to help her even though she was feeling scare and sus of Jake. She told Isabella she better return soon since Isabella was going to run away after that. Unfortunately this just leads to a spiral of events that didn't go as plan. Jake had tried to threaten FL with a gun but then gave her the gun to prove he won't hurt her. FL didn't know what to do with the gun and hid it. Eventually police came when they found out Jake might be there. They found the gun that was hidden in her belongings and linked her as Jake's lover. ML tried to protect her to get her out of jail. He was able to protect his sister from being associated with Jake and he asked a lawyer friend to help FL, but FL told the truth when the lawyer told her to lie that she was threatened to take in Jake. FL confess to the truth that she chose to help him. As a result she ended up in prison for 6 months. ML and FL never wrote to each other after that. ML was upset she didn't take his help and FL felt what she did made it over between them.
- After being released from prison she moved straight to NY, America with tickets she got from an inmate. When ML found out, he already given up trying to be with her and took that as her betrayal towards him. FL met Enzo (an Italian American) right upon landing in Manhattan and befriended him very quickly. She continued to live as a normal person working in NYC for 1 year. Until one day she got a job in a hotel. ML's friend who was at the hotel recognized her and decided to play a trick on ML since he knew ML still not fully over her. He had ML came over for business but she didn't realize ML was there since she didn't have her glasses on (her eyes were bad and ML bought her glasses before but she doesn't wear glasses because her jobs don't want her to wear them). Eventually she does recognize it was him from the large frame and voice, but he ignores her.
- After a few back and forth of ignoring each other, Enzo tried to ask FL to be with him. FL decided to really move on and accepted Enzo's hug. So she finally agrees to date him but that didn't even last a few days since she meets ML again at a job and
ML ended up kissing her and asking her back to which she tells him to give her time (because she has to break up with Enzo). There wasn't much issue with breaking up with Enzo since he could already tell she never loved him. FL and ML started dating but FL also started her nursing studies again and had told ML not to distract her too much or keep her away from her studies. He agreed and let her study, but kept tabs on her and bribed the person in charge of the boardinghouse she lives in.
FL didn't like it as it was a women's boardinghouse yet he kept coming over to visit her, but then she got kidnapped by the Irish mob who had bad dealings with an Italian mafia (Enzo) and thought FL was Enzo's lover. FL found out Enzo was part of the mafia and got upset but she was more worried about her life. ML found out FL is kidnapped and went after Enzo. He was also going to call the cops but Enzo said if he does, FL will really die unless he was given the power to control the cops. ML called up his friend who called up the mayor and they backed Enzo as he went in to get FL. In the whole process FL was shot was saved and the group was caught.
- There's a flashback scene where FL did confess to ML in past timeline but he didn't believe her since he really thought she cheated on him and FL wanted him to give her reason to hold onto him.
- FL continued her studies after recuperating. She moved to Holzman's villa (he is ML's friend who happened to have interest in Isabella). FL and ML stayed together at the villa and lowly dated. FL returned Enzo's gift to him (a watch because he had seen her kept using an old watch before which was actually given by ML before). FL and ML travelled back to England. FL imagined a married life with ML but was scared even though not against it. On the ship she met John Emherst II (he's actually the father of "Jake"). John owns a huge newspaper press. His son John III (Jake) is the successor to his company.
- ML's mother is pleased to see FL again, mainly because she's glad her son is finally getting married. ML was well over marriageable age and trying to get a family so she was worried. FL heard from Eric (ml's younger brother) that Isabella isn't doing so well but didn't agree with FL wanting to see her because of what Isabella had done before with throwing Jake to her which led her to prison.
FL said Isabella is her friend. Eric said she should stay close to his brother to avoid being scammed. He meant it as a criticism because FL is too nice and always get into trouble for her niceness. Upon meeting Isabella, she realized the change overtime. Isabella used to be very idealistic and overtime she realize herself as one person couldn't change anything.
- FL and ML had a very small wedding at a chapel. Their first night ended up being them staying in their room for a few days. FL noticed that ML had gone through good physical therapy since even though he was disable he was still strong.
5 years time skip, there were rumors that ML has two faces, cold when working but when with his wife, he lets her have everything. This is around the Great Depression since ML's business starting to go down. He kept worrying and didn't want to involve FL with his financial problems but FL wanted him to tell her since she always felt upset when her father went bankrupt and didn't tell her anything and just disappeared. ML kept travelling to America to deal with his businesses there. FL and Isabella decided to change their financial scholarship to help women get into medical field to help ppl financially. FL got a letter from America. It was from John (Jake) who remembered himself and had written to her before he dies from an illness. He thanked her for everything and said they could've been friends had they been in different circumstances. FL realized Jake is the son of John II and decided to go to America to meet John II to tell him since his son won't tell his family because of his guilt.
- FL returned to NYC. Great Depression made NYC looked very different. She met John's younger brother (Leonel). He tried to kill FL and actually admitted he half fabricated the letter because apparently John had left half the inheritance to FL and his father went crazy. FL warned him killing her isn't a good idea. She told Leonel that what she had heard from John, she knew Leonel would regret after killing someone because of his character. Leonel eventually dropped murdering her and took her to his father.
- The father was upset to find out his son was dying in a foreign country. He felt more conflicted when he saw his second son because Leonel isn't his biological son but the son of his deceased wife. (When he was born he was fine but as he got older the features look very different so the father knew it was from another man but can't blame his wife who had already died when giving birth, but as a result he doesn't want to leave his company to Leonel at all.) The father thanked FL for helping his son and made a deal with FL. FL doesn't want the inheritance because it'll look bad publicly for her. Instead she told him to use his money to create an award to people who write to empower others and empower them to do so.
- In the end Emherst ended up helping ML with the business and Ian felt bad that he had to rely on FL since he didn't want to include her in his problems. She said it's a wife's privileges to worry for him so he was glad since he's glad she's his wife. Leonel later on tells FL that John loved FL. FL was dense and didn't know. She said John only said they could've been friends. She didn't want to question further.
- ML's prosthetic leg was hurting him. The doctor had told him not to walk on it too much. FL woke up to it and helping him apply ointment. FL had realized life isn't just like a princess marrying a knight and that was the end. The story still continues after marriage. They went to John's funeral and somehow ended up bumping into Enzo who actually knew John. ML wasn't happy and later on FL asked ML if he's upset with Leonel or Enzo. ML complained it's weird that everyone just falls for her.
- One night FL felt she's pregnant and they called in a doctor to check. They ended up having a son whom she named after John. She calls him Johnny, but ML doesn't like that name and calls their son by his middle name, Lewis. He has black hair, cold blue eyes and rosy cheeks, smiles like his mother.
Time skip to 2 yrs. Fl and Leonel remained friends.
- The family went to see the movies and FL was scare to show certain movies since she remembered the PTSD from past timeline. They went to see Wizard of Oz. Ian rented out the whole theater this time though using their son as an excuse that he might cry.
- War broke out again later on and FL was watching ML sleep one time wondering if he's worried about it. She asked what he was dreaming of when he woke up. He said he dreamt of her. He dreamt of knowing life because of her and knowing how to love because of her.
- There's an ending poem by Dylan Thomas, "Death Has No Dominion
Daaamn I thank you
Btw where did you get these spoilers tho? I couldn't find shi.t about this manhwa
If you go to novelupdates it’s up there
thank you for this should’ve known to drop it the second she started to be interested in ml in her second life again
You’re welcome
This was nice but they dragged it out too much I get the part, that life is just not till marriage but after that too but lmao 4-5 influential men fell for you??
The art is gorgeous but.. the story is lackluster. Your child is being targeted, tell him that you had his baby so you can be protected. Yet she just keeps going back on it. I feel this gonna be a story that’s 100+ chapters till they find out who baby it is.
Sometimes his idiocy is endearing but sometimes it’s too much and I facepalm violently.